So.... It has been a while since I have been on here, but I am
really going to try and blog more; if only for my sake.
I have been making some progress in learning my language, but find
it is really hard for me to retain all of the knowledge I gain. I worry that
when I get there none of my practice will matter, and that I will forget
anything. I try and speak in German with Sara and whoever I can, I try and
think in German, and I try to practice but it is really, really hard to fit
that in with the rest of my life. I know I need to do more, so I am really
trying to work... but it is not going as fast or as well as I thought. I have
heard many times that anything worth doing is worth doing well, and this is no
exception. So I will have to work harder, practice more, study more, and just
really put myself into it.
I am starting to get REALLY excited for my trip; but along with
that I am SO scared. I am scared that I will not be able to communicate. I am
scared that I will not have any money when I get there; so event though I want
to travel and have fun, I wont be able to. I am scared that they will not have
all the medicine I need available in Austria. I am also worried about lots of
little things to like making friends, meeting and interacting with people,
making an idiot of myself... you know all of those types of things. And I am getting annoyed that I still don't know my district... But even with all of that taken into consideration, I am still so excited and set on
going even though I KNOW that this is CRAZY!
Now that I listed all of those things I am worried about, let me
tell you some things that I am excited about. I am excited to meet lots of new
people. I am excited to try lots of new food. I am excited to be totally
immersed in another culture. I am excited to learn a new language. I am excited
to be independent for a while. I am EXCITED to travel and enjoy Austria and as
much of Austria as I can.
I am feeling so many things about this exchange including Happy,
excited, scared, anxious and as of yesterday a little bit sad. My best friend
AKA "Venezuelan twin" and I were talking about when I leave and she
suggested that we should go get pedicures the day before I leave. I said that
would be great, and that I would probably cry; and then we BOTH started tearing
up. She is excited for me, and I am excited for me but I know I will have to
Skype her while I am there or I will just miss her too much. No offence if
anyone is reading this; but I think I will miss her most of all.... its funny
we didn't even know each other until 8th grade, but now I cannot imagine not
knowing her.
My Austrian residency paperwork is going to be up next week. It is beginning to feel real that I am going to Austria. I have
started to plan what I will pack. I have decided on Austrian themed food at my
open-house. I have started to look into things to do in Austria and try and
read as much as I can about the country and culture in general. I am so excited
to go, but I realize that this will be hard as well as fun, but I just hope
that when I come back; I can say this was the best year of my life.
(also as I was reading
this, and feeling all those things the song On Top Of The World by Imagine
Dragons came on my Pandora, which is a song I associate with RYE. I think this
is a sign. This is going to be the best year of my life.)
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